I dreamed (of) an earthquake… quite a biggie, but the buildings and everything else stood firmly. Probabil ca subconstientul lucreaza… it usually does, one way or another. Nu stiu daca din motive de Haiti, de Chile sau de 4 martie ’77, sau pentru ca ieri am aflat niste… lucruri. Could be because either of them, or both (or maybe none). Lucruri pe care nu… simteam nevoia sa le stiu (din moment ce… nu stiam de ele), pe care nu trebuia sa le stiu sau care nu ma privesc in mod direct. But being stuff about someone I know, that someone felt like telling them to me. Maybe just for… information. Or maybe because of some kind of… guilt. Or maybe just to rub it in even… kidding… but who knows, one can take into account all the possibilities. But most likely it’s just the first… And although the news was somewhat …surprising or even shocking a bit, it wasn’t completely unexpected. For me at least. Maybe just a bit sooner than I thought. Se pare ca povestile din viata mea care au inceput candva cu niste macinici/mucenici au parte de… dezvoltari spectaculoase tot prin preajma acestei sarbatori… Anyway… “Stirile” nu m-au surprins dar nici nu m-au suparat, afectat sau lezat… lucruri pe care, in alte circumstante poate, le-as fi simtit. Si nici nu m-au bucurat sau ceva de genul asta. Ci doar m-au facut sa (ma) gandesc un pic mai profund. In primul rand la mine. De fapt doar la mine. Si ast(e)a pentru ca lucrurile de genul asta au ajuns sa… reuseasca cel mult sa… ma gadile la parul de pe coae sau sa imi stoarca o lacrima din cur. Sorry for being so graphic about it and sorry in general, but that’s how I feel. And what I feel. Which is almost nothing anymore. The little of me that still is and feels human is a bit envious… But most of me is quite indifferent… Si ca sa nu fac discriminari (sau incriminari), asta simt (sau mai bine zis nu simt) fata de oricine, chiar (sau mai ales) fata de mine, atunci cand vine vorba de… lucruri “pe baza de iubire”, ca sa citez un clasic in viata. But that doesn’t mean I generally don’t care about youz, peeps…

So, that being said si ca sa inchei, pe langa cele zise deja, all I can say and do is to wish you well… I think you’ll be a good wife and I’m pretty sure you’ll be a great mother… as for me, all I can say and do about it is to stand in front of the mirror, look and say:

– Ba, asta e… pula mea, tu n-ai noroc!… oricum traiesti in tara resemnatilor… vorba cantaretului – “I started out with nothing and I still got most of it left”.

Lautari Smiley si Cheloo, bagati-o pe aiaaa!…